New Normal.....What Is Normal Now?

What is normal after a life changing event.  I can tell you that normal isn't what it used to be, I am still waiting.  I really thought that 3-4 weeks after my last Chemotherapy treatment I would be back to normal, well that was dumb of me! ha ha.  I have learned that I probably won't be 100% what I used to consider to be normal.   I am walking 1-2 miles daily now but always feel like I just did a "Last Chance Workout" with Jillian from the Biggest Loser.  I walk with a great new friend of mine who happens to be a nurse, so I know if I faint or something goes wrong...I'm in good hands.  My body has retained water enough for two people, but the walking is helping....well kinda.  My sleepless nights are still with me at 2am!!  You know, there are some strange shows on TV between 1:30am-4am.  I still have memory loss and eyes water like I'm crying.  BUT the upside is, I can eat and taste everything, I can eat all foods and not have side effects.  I drank one soda and realized I think soda is a once a month beverage for me, that's a plus!  My muscles and joints feel so stiff I sometimes think rigamortis has set in..ha ha. Just walking up stairs, no matter how few, are painful but doable.  I am not going to let this keep me from living a life, I just need to find that normal.  I hear "New Normal" is only a few months away for me.  I will have hair, the weight gain will be gone and hopefully the joint and muscle pain will be gone to.

I do have a couple of major surgeries coming up that will help with the prevention of having cancer return in the future.  February 21st I will have a Bi-Lateral Mastectomy with Plastic Surgery and in March I will have my Ovaries removed.  I am hoping for 100% remission of cancer but I am not turning my back on it.  This is my new normal, another lesson to learn in life.  So whats normal now, we really don't know yet but all modesty is thrown out the window when I see an Oncologist or Plastic Surgeon now!! ha ha.   You would think I am used to "New Normal" having had two girls in High School Cheer.....nope that's just plain craziness!!  Yet we get to be CheerParents yet again soon....Makayla is trying out for the High School Cheerleading Squad in a month or two, her two older sister's advise, "if your going to do it, stay out of the drama"!!  ha ha.  Now that's an Oxymoron......