All who know me know, I am sensitive when it comes to my skin, but I hadn't really prepared myself enough for the possible reactions to the chemicals that would be going through my veins. My skin is so dry and my hair, the actual follicles, hurt??? I have learned that for the 5 days following treatment your hair will hurt to brush, to touch, to move and to just look at?! I figure my time with this hair that I have had for 45 years will soon shed, leave me and be replaced by....a younger, healthier and better looking head of locks. I am excited to see what will happen but really hoping for anything but grey!!!
The side effects from Chemo so far.....hand rash, mouth sores, body aches, sleeplessness, hair hurts, memory a bit fuzzy, eyesight off, fatigue & taste buds missing in action. I know with each side effect, I will get through it and move on. Today I really can't eat pretty much anything with the new mouth sores, so I had a milk shake for dinner. Brushing my teeth is really painful so I do it gently.
Although I could be mad and say "I Hate Having Cancer" I have to reflect on why I have this disease. I was given this disease for a reason. I pray that I will know what it is I am to do with all I am going through and learn so I can put my knowledge to good use. Anger wont get me anywhere, a positive attitude will, and this will make me, my family & those around us happy.
So I figure by what I am told by those who are currently going through the same type of Chemo Therapy and my Doctor and nurses, my hair has about 2 more weeks with me. I have gotten some beanies, hats and scarves in preparation for my new look. I have a good friend Ines Parr who is going through Chemo Therapy for Breast Cancer right now, she has been such a good friend and Mentor to me through this process. She is such an inspiration and has such a great positive attitude, I really look up to her.
Janessa was in town over last weekend and made us dinner one night, I was able to taste it and it was soooooo good. JT and his friend Camille make cake for desert & I was able to taste that too!!! Thanksgiving is just 7 days away, I hope my mouth sores are gone by then so I can eat the amazing dinner Cassandra will be making us. My family is amazing, I am so blessed to have them in my life.
Scooter I made you a really cool gift and I can't wait to give it to you!!! You're going to love it.
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